As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish, so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater, so is my…
Journal 11: A Song for Every Step
What songs help you process the betrayal? Music has always been a source of inspiration for me. I found much solace in Shane and Shane worship music. These are 10 songs that span a variety of genres and artists that…
Journal 10: Light in the Darkness
He doesn’t say “I love you” anymore. He calls me only by my first time. He is cold and curt. He answers the phone with, “Yes…” I am a stranger in my own home. It’s an uncomfortable, icky feeling that…
Journal 9: Valentines
Valentines No card, no kisses, no roses. Contempt, coldness, and ice. He told me, “I am only a parent partner.” I said, “Oh, that’s nice.” I did not understand at the time…but now I think I do. My body went…
Journal 8: Just One Step
Just one step Come into the light my child Come forth from the shackles of shame that bind that blind You don’t have to hide anymore Come forth from the weeds of deception that strangle and smolder Confession, it burns,…
Journal 7: The Cycle of Intimacy Anorexia
Closeness, coldness, complete withdrawal…on repeat The closeness is comforting, coldness is chilling, the withdrawal is wounding… It is a slow burn…like suffocation from carbon monoxide…you don’t really know why exactly you can’t breathe…you can’t see it or detect it…yet it…